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Well im new to this blog thing. I mean i have myspace but i've never actually had a proper blog. I made this blog one because im bored and two because i feel like its great that people can share their thoughts openly and freely. Im 15 years old and i think a bit too deeply I look into things that aren't really there i make up small things into big things and i am quite paranoid due to some events that happend when i was 14. When i was 14 my bestfriend just suddenly ditched me and all my other friends did aswell , they would purposely leave me out of things and would whisper stuff to each other and even when i moved classes one of them my old bestfriend shouted yes when she found out i was not in her class anymore. It left me feeling so alone that i just didn't want to live anymore. Then my now best mate carla came to the rescue and showed me life is well worth liveing. I know that was a bad time and it was in the past but it has left me completly paranoid about wether people like me or not. I know its a bad way to be but thats me i suppose. Although im like this i love singing and acting they are what i live for because once im on that stage im someone completely different im not me i can be whoever i want to be.

Im in my last year at school and i so want to do well in my gcse's ! Even though year 10 was my rebel year ( i really didn't work as hard as i should have) i am determind not to muck up this year and do well for myself. The more i think about it the more i dawns on me that my gcse's will actually shape my future and that scares the hell out of me !

Im one of the main parts in this years school production of guys and dolls. I play miss Adelaide a ditzy character that i have come to love so much. Rehersals keep me busy along with coursework and stuff ! but i love it !

Well i suppose you have figured out by now that i write too much and ramble on like and old woman ! I can talk for england sometimes i talk to carla for 3 hours straight on the phone !
My mum isn't happy with the phone bill !

kelly:D